Arounds

The only permanence with ADHD is impermanence. Habits are cyclical.

As a Taurus and an elemental type of person, I rest heavily in my habits when I have them. They are deep and constant and vital. I move through them slowly. I feel Absolute about them. But they do pass and they do change. My interests are seasonal, in the way that years passing are also seasonal – you have many winters and many summers but never two the same.

As I get older and have more perspective towards myself, it becomes less about trying and more about following. I will not say “I will try this again.” Instead I notice a desire and this may be what fulfils it.

I think I am the most myself when I lean heavily. Self-questioning or hesitancy rings false from me. I am certain, even when I am wrong, and then I am certain again afterwards. I will try to be myself in the spaces where I speak to myself, because what else is the point?